...is to spend time and energy on holding up a shield, on "protecting myself." I just want to be... I want to be in a context where I'm allowed to just be; where I can focus on studying, exploring and learning more, on interacting without fear. I don't like, and I don't have surplus energy, for contexts in which people just take whatever they can lay their hands on out of fear of not getting anything... where they have failed to understand that it is by giving that you also receive. It's just a matter of attitude. And I'm tired.